Operation Slobber Puss

Apparently, according to my children, I have been failing at this parenting gig.

Now, if I had force-fed them nothing but the dried up rosehips dotting the shrubs around our home, I could perhaps understand this. But since they have a healthy diet consisting of popsicles, sugar cereals and jam I'm a wee bit confused.

Or, if I locked them in their room with nothing to do but chew on their toenails I may be in agreement with their judgment. But in order to lock them in their room I'd have to drag them out of the swimming pool or off the trampoline and let's face it, my kids are slippery little devils. For the most part I happily spend obscene amounts of money on playthings to keep them out of the house. Having them locked in their rooms would mean subjecting myself to listening to them fight and whine. Contrary to my blonde hair, I'm smarter than that.

So it was with a bit of confusion that I looked at my kids, who were standing side by side, frowning at me as I held Jumby in my arms, and asked just how I failed at parenting.

"It's no fair!" One whined.

"You don't play with us!" The other complained.

"Excuse me? Don't play with you? My retinas are still blurred and my lungs are on fire from all the chlorine I ingested yesterday when you ganged up on me in the pool and tried to drown me, repeatedly. For hours. The blisters on my hand from holding the Wii remote are threatening to fester if I play anymore video games with you and might I remind you how I whooped your arses in Scrabble this morning?"

For crying out loud, the only thing I have done since my children went on summer vacation is play with them. I'm tired of playing. If I worked as hard at cleaning my house, or um, blogging, as I do at playing with my children I'm sure my life would be far more successful. Or at least my toilet wouldn't be fuzzy.

"No, that's not what we mean," Frac said. "We mean you don't play with us the way you play with Jumby."

"Ah, well if you want sweetie, we can play Patty Cake right now," I teased.

"Very funny Mom."

"Well of course I don't play with you the same as I play with Jumbster. He's six. You're almost 13 and 14. He's developmentally delayed. Your report cards indicate you are on the bright side of smart. He's a quadriplegic; the two of you walk on your hands for fun. Are you seeing the difference or shall I go on?"

"We know all that MOOOOM," my daughter countered. "It's just, um.." she trailed off.

"It's just that you cuddle with him and not with us," Frac finished the sentence his sister started.

"Ahhh. I see. You're jealous. Of your blind, deaf brother who eats from a tube and will never walk." I took a moment to nuzzle Jumby's neck.

"We're not jealous! We love Jumby! It's just we want you to cuddle with us like you cuddle with him."

"I cuddle with you all the time. Heck, I can't even sit on the couch by myself because you two want to sit beside me."

But the words sat with me, long after the conversation ended and my kids moved on, satisfied they had been heard and that I had listened.

Do I cuddle Jumby more than the older two? To some extent, I had to admit to myself, yes. For the past year I have slobbered more on Jumby than I do on my husband, whom I'm legally required to slobber on. I've been trying to establish a maternal bond with him, trying to reassure him through my touch that I will be his forever mommy, always.

Had I neglected the older two kids in the process? Have I made them feel lesser in my efforts to make Jumby feel like this is his home? Mommy guilt haunted me. Yes, I kiss and hug Fric and Frac every day. Our house is an affectionate household. Even before their brother Bug passed away, I dribbled my mommy love onto my kids through my hugs and kisses. I didn't grow up with parents who openly showed affection and I have always been careful to make sure my kids feel my love through my touch.

But have I been committing the cardinal parenting sin and blatantly favouring one sibling over the others?

This called for an immediate investigation. So I called my husband.

"Do I favour Jumby over the other two kids?" I immediately asked when he answered his phone.

"Um, hello to you too. Why yes, I'm fine. Thanks for asking."

"I'm serious Boo. I think your kids think I love Jumby more than I love them," I worried aloud and then explained the situation with him.

My husband, ever the rock that keeps me grounded, laughed. "Um, no. They are just being brats. You abuse them equally. You're fairly fair in your distribution of maternal slobber. I think you are worrying for nothing."

Clearly my husband would be of no help with this.

So I asked my Dad. He's here almost every day and has an inside view of the maternal-child relations. He's a straight shooter. He'll tell me like it is.

"Dad, do I spoil Jumby? The kids think I love him more than them."

"Ah, just put a boot up their arses and tell them to go clean their rooms and stop bothering you."

Right. Perhaps my father isn't the foremost authority on tactful parental relations.

This meant I only had one choice left.

Operation Slobber Puss.

I decided I would make sure every time I kissed or held Jumby to make sure I immediately shared the affection with his older siblings.

At first, my kids lapped it up. It was a free love festival around here all the time. My kids couldn't walk past me without me stopping to hug them and lay a big smooch on them. My lips were getting chapped from all the kisses I was doling out. Apparently, I cuddle with Jumby a whole lot more than I was aware of. But since the kid doesn't walk and requires me to carry him everywhere for his basic daily needs, he tends to be in my arms a lot. Which meant, since I was insistent on equally sharing the love, seeking out the older two for random moments of affection.

It didn't take long for my kids to begin to grow weary with the constant cuddles. Apparently interupting their game of tag or making them stop their video games in a critical moment to kiss me can get a bit annoying. Who knew?

The weariness quickly grew into aggravation and it wasn't long before my children would twitch every time they saw me walk towards them. At one point my kids even held up their hands in the sign of a cross and hissed at me like they would a vampire. "Enough Mom!"

Still, I persisted. It's always been an active concern of mine that in my quest to parent first Shalebug and now Jumbster, that my kids would be neglected as my maternal efforts are swallowed by the needs of the disabled child. It's always been a struggle to find a balance at parenting the healthy children when their disabled little brother waves his overwhelming needs in our faces. It isn't always easy being the healthy kid in a family with a child with special needs. I recognize that and want my healthy children to know that even though I can't always be there for them, I see them.

If my kids want more cuddles, than darn it, cuddles they will get.

Then the straw that finally broke my camels' backs finally dropped. I was trying to be an affectionate mother with Frac as he was trying to read his book. As I leaned in and blew a raspberry kiss onto the side of his neck like I do his little brother, he stood up and slammed his book down.

"All right! Enough! No more kisses. Just leave us alone!" His sister, who was in the other room, sauntered in and nodded her agreement with her little brother.

"It's too much Mom! You're always touching us. It's driving us bonkers," she said.

"But I'm just cuddling with you like I do with your little brother!" I insisted, somewhat taken back.

"But we're not six! And we're not a baby in our brain like he is! It's different!" They both retorted.

I looked at them, as Jumby rolled around on the floor in a little patch of sunlight, softly cooing to himself and then I smiled. Wickedly.

"Well, thank heavens that is over! Come on Jumby, let's go play Patty cake," I said as I scooped him up and into my arms.

I mean, showing maternal love is all fine and dandy. But there comes a time when giving your child raspberry kisses needs to come to an end.

Because let's face it. No matter how much you love your children, once they have body odour and pubic hair, smooching on them while making monster noises just ain't the same.

Who Needs A Map?

In what can only be described as a momentary blip of insanity I decided my children and I needed to escape our house and hit the road in a quest to break up the humdrum of summer vacation.

Since my sister, Mouse, had the week off of work, I decided to make it a real family vacation and invite her and my nephew along for the terror. I admit I wasn't just being nice. The idea of being alone with three kids and no father figure to help supervise was less than palatable. I've never vacationed with my children without their father. I wasn't quite sure I was up for the task without a little adult supervision.

Knowing me, I'd likely revert back to childhood myself and feed my children nothing but cotton candy and gummy worms for the duration. Although Fric and Frac would surely appreciate the lack of effort, Jumby requires an adult who is capable of remembering his medication schedule.

So with great excitement we piled into the vehicles earlier this week and set off on the open road with no discernable destination in mind. Because nothing says family vacation quite like wandering from one highway gas station to the next with no map, no plan and no destination in mind.

Hours later and the realities of traveling with children quickly set in. The whole 'discover Alberta' with no real plan was not going to fly since my children actually wanted to get out of the vehicle at some point.

Just as Fric and Frac were attempting to murder one another in the back seat and Jumby was trying to escape his car seat by gnawing through his straps, I looked in the rear view mirror and snapped, "You are acting like you belong in a zoo! Stop that!"

It was like a light bulb went off in my head. The Zoo! We can go to the zoo! And so the destination had been set. I always knew my children behaving like rabid monkeys would one day work in my favour.

The upside to taking the kids to the zoo is if they misbehave you can always threaten to leave them behind. Or feed them to the lions. The zoo is a magical place for a stressed out mommy's imagination.



Of course, the Calgary zoo isn't a regular zoo. It has dinosaurs. That roar. And twitch. And cause four-year-old nephews to lose their dinosaur-loving minds.

I admit, I wasn't thinking of the swarm of screaming ankle biters that would be running lose in the zoo, alongside my children when I decided to take the kids to the zoo.  I mean, why would other parents want to take their kids to a public place to run alongside the exotic animals? Who does that?

Nothing makes a parent feel old like realizing they can't keep up with a herd of excited, sugar-high stampeding children as one navigate the slopes of the zoo.

My children were in heaven. They have a twisted sense of humour.



Turns out if you place me in a public park with hoards of children that don't belong to me, I tend to get annoyed. Quickly. I sucked at this road trip business. After tripping over one small child after another, I knew that an attitude adjustment was quickly needed before I threatened to put my foot up some random innocent child's arse.



The best way to adjust one's attitude when stuck in a dinosaur park in a huge zoo, with no coffee or alcohol and the sun is rapidly sucking the life out of you? Kiss a dinosaur. Heck, since my husband is out of town it's the most action I've had in weeks. A girl can never bee too choosy you know.



Apparently all I needed was a little love because the day seemed to improve after I slipped the monster the tongue. What can I say? I enjoyed making a public arse out of myself.

We wandered the park and eventually made our way from the dinosaurs to the living-breathing animals. The kids got a kick out of seeing all the exotic animals and I got my kicks from watching all the other harried mothers wander about the park.

Misery does love company and I am a bit of a sadist.



Eventually, all the animals had been seen, all the parks had been played in and all my dollars had been spent on soggy hotdogs and snow cones. It was time to seek shelter at a family friendly hotel.

Which meant navigating a foreign city during rush hour traffic.

Have I mentioned I'm a nervous driver at the best of times? Here's where I desperately wished for my own little GPS machine that has a Darth Vader voice. Trying to cross the freeway would have been much easier if only I had Darth breathing out instructions like "In five hundred meters turn left Luke!"

Fate was merciful though, and a hotel was quickly stumbled upon. A hotel with a pool. My children were in heaven. It became abundantly obvious as they ooh'd and ahh'd over the minibar and the pre-wrapped soaps and sample sized shampoos that my children really need to get out more often.

Somebody get on that for me, will ya?

It was hard to be jaded and cynical (and face it, completely bitchy with fatigue) when the world was just. so. exciting. to my kids.

Oh, to be fourteen (and perky) once again.



The thing is, as much as I grumped and groused and as exhausted as I still am, from all the merriment, I wouldn't change any of this for the world. I want my kids to experience life, and I selfishly want to be there to witness when they do. They are growing up faster than I can slow them down and no family knows better than we do how quickly life can suddenly end.

My time actively parenting Fric and Frac is quickly coming to an end and I want to take advantage of the few years I have left.

Plus it is so much more socially acceptable to gorge out on junk food while watching Glee in your jammies and have a pillow fight when you are in a hotel room. If my kids tried that at home I'd likely lose my mind.

My children now know to fear my pillow-swinging prowess. Heh.

The road trip was a success. Defined by me not losing my mind, children sleeping soundly and a sister who is still alive even after snoring loudly beside me all night long.

The only down side of the trip, besides not having Boo along to share the memories with us, was realizing, I'm not as young as I once was.

There was a time when I'd stand in a hotel lobby and young men would approach me to flirt.

Now young men approach me to ask how old my daughter is and if she has a boyfriend.

She's never allowed to swim in a public pool again.

How To NOT Get A Birth Certificate For Your Child

I couldn't put it off any longer. The moment every grown adult has learned to fear and dread was finally upon me. It was time to go face the hell that is known as spending an afternoon at the DMV. Or, as we in Alberta call it, the Office of the Registries. We Albertans like to fancy up our department of motor vehicles. It makes us feel better when we are stuck in the pits of hell.

To finish up some small legalities with Jumby's adoption, I need a birth certificate. I have put it off for months but between my lawyer's annoyed phone messages and my husband's irritating nagging, I knew I could no longer put it off. I had to go face the piper.

So it was with great trepidation I set off to our small town's registries office and waited to be annoyed.

It didn't take long. There was one person working the counter while three others were either talking on the phone to their boyfriend, filing their nails or playing solitaire on what is supposed to be an official government computer.

Oh, government privatization, how I loathe thee.

After waiting in line for what seemed to be an eternity, passing the time counting the lines on the wooden paneled walls and trying not to pass out from the smell of mildew emanating what I assumed was once a green carpet, I finally made it to the counter.

"Hi, I need to get a birth certificate for my son."

The experience itself was rather routine. The clerk was the typical soulless zombie who never made eye contact, even when taking my money.

But as she was typing in my information into the computer she stopped suddenly and went, "Hmm."

"What's the name of your child you want the certificate for?"

"Knox Jumby Redneck," I replied. (Although, I may have used his legal name and not his blog name, just to speed up the process.)

"According to my computer, you never gave birth to a child by that name."

"No, we adopted him. The adoption was finalized this past February." I then handed over a sheath of very official papers the adoption judge had sent, along as a letter from the judge telling me to get my arse in gear and get the boy a valid birth certificate.

"Oh. Well, I don't know how to do an adoption birth certificate," the zombie replied after peering at the papers like they were written in Greek.

Great. Just fan-freaking-tastic.

"Well, perhaps one of the clerks who are playing solitaire on their computers know how?" I asked somewhat hopefully.

My zombie gave me a baleful glare and then sauntered (slowly) to talk amongst the other undead workers in the office. After a few minutes she returned, and started typing at the speed of light. My annoyance lifted and I thought I saw the light at the end of the tunnel.

"Nope, it says here this child doesn't exist."

"Well, he does and I have the bite marks to prove it." My sweet Jumbster likes to pretend he's Edward Cullen. Only with less sparkles and sharper fangs.

"Hmm."

"Try using this birth registry number," I pointed out to her. "His name was legally changed so perhaps if you search for his former name."

"Hmmm."

I watched as she frowned at the computer screen, typed in some more and then frowned again.

"Nope. Knox Jumby Redneck doesn't exist in any name variation you are giving me."

"Well, he's not a figment of my imagination and I have the adoption order here from a real live judge agreeing with me," I countered as I waved the sheath of papers in front of her.

"Hold on." She sauntered away for a moment and I swear I saw her devil horns pop through her hair.

After what seemed like an eternity, she returned again and stared blankly at the screen again.

"I'm afraid I can't help you."

"You have to help me. This is your job."

"I'm sorry but I've worked here for seven years and never had to do this before."

"You mean in seven years no other couple in this town has adopted a child and needed a birth certificate?" I asked incredulously.

"Appears not."

"Well lucky me. I still need that birth certificate though, so could someone else help me?"

"Our supervisor is the only one who may know how to do this but he's gone for the week."

"Of course he is." ARGH.

"Tell you what, I'm going to put an inquiry into the Vital Statistics office and let them handle it. They'll either send you his birth certificate or a form to fill out and then process his certificate from there. Just be sure to mail it to them and not bring it back here."

Since there was nothing else I could do, I nodded and gathered up my papers and my sanity to leave.

"That'll be 35 dollars please."

"But you didn't do anything!"

"I sent the inquiry to the department of vital statistics."

"But I may not even get a birth certificate from them!"

"That's how much it costs ma'am."

Since I realized there was no point in arguing with the undead, I handed over the money and fled before I leapt over the counter and beat her to death with her own arm.

A week later a very official letter came from the Department of Vital Statistics. Well, look at that! I thought to myself. The zombie didn't just steal my money for cocaine and condoms. She actually did something!

There in the envelope was a shiny new birth certificate. Well, all that trouble for nothing, I thought to myself. In the grand scheme of things, that wasn't near as hard as I feared it would be.

And then I read the birth certificate. It was for me, not Jumby. And it may not have been for me, since the name on it was Tania Millet. But since it had my father's name on it I figured it must have been for me. I was momentarily confused by my name being misspelled and my mother's name being entirely wrong. According to the department of vital statistics my mom is now officially Elsie Miller.

My mom's name doesn't even start with an E.

So after a wee bit of creative cursing, I gathered up the birth certificate I didn't need and was useless to boot, and drove back to the registries office. Only this time, I went to one located in a small city. I was hoping the zombies working in an urban center would be slightly more knowledgeable.

I was wrong.

Not only would they not refund my money or re-issue me a birth certificate with my correct information on it, but they had no clue how to get the figment of my imagination I call my son, a birth certificate. However, they made eye contact and were sympathetic to my plight as they tried to suck out my soul so that's something, no?

After a few phone calls and some head scratching, the new clerk thought she had things figured out. She had confidence in her skills and promised there would be a birth certificate with my son's name on it in my mail box in a few days.

I wasn't as confident but still I handed over yet another 35 dollars, just to flee the dungeon. I wanted to escape before she'd pull up my driver's record and noticed I owed a wee small amount of money for one or two speeding violations I may or may not have accrued over this past year.

Another week passed and another official envelope arrived from Vital Statistics. I wasn't too hopeful it would actually be Jumby's certificate but I was curious to see what new name the government had given me.

Only it wasn't a birth certificate.

It was a death certificate. For my deceased kid. Which I didn't need, because you know, he's dead. I don't need any legal proof of it. The tombstone and tears are sufficient enough.

Head meet desk and let the thumping begin.

I think the people in the department of vital statistics are screwing with me. I get it. You hate your jobs. You're likely underpaid and overworked and you're irritated that the zombies who work on the front lines at the registries office give you such a bad name.

I understand. I even feel your pain. But for the love of unicorns and flying monkeys, just issue me a dang birth certificate so my kid can get on with his new life. I'll even drag Jumby along as evidence he really does exist.

He's a real boy, dammit. I swear.

Today, for the third time, like a time loop in hell, I repeated the process. Again, I was promised a birth certificate for my child would arrive in a week or so. Again, I forked over yet another thirty five dollars and again I left empty-handed, with less soul than I had when I arrived.

They say the third time is the charm, no?

I mean, what are the chances the government will screw this up for the third time?

Wait. Don't answer that.